Sick at work - literally

Its my first day at work last Monday...and I am sick ...yup.. literally sick. Last friday after being exposed to the pollution (after staying at home for a long time) I got home with colds na. I guess being at home has its advantages...so at work, I can not use the phone as much as I want to make calls na...because the clients might think that they are talking to a guy...hehehe...husky na nga ako, nadagdagan pa ng ubo't sipon so equals husky na ngongo pa...Just imagine how my voice sounded over the phone...hay!!!

It is very hard for me to leave the house every morning, coz everytime I wake up for work, Sam also wakes up. She's used to sleeping beside me kasi, so she knows whenever I have to get out of bed. Before I leave, super kiss ko na siya, and although she's just 7 months, she knows na that I am leaving her to her yaya (super love ko si yaya - I'm blessed to have her!). I feel like crying (OA ba? well mothers out there knows what I am talking about) whenever I walk out from the gate and sees her eyes, sad and longing for me. And as I walk away from the gate, I always look back coz I want to have my last look of her before I leave. I always put my fears aside (for my childrens' safety) and lift it up to God, coz I might not be able to leave if I will always worry.

As for my son Paul, naku, he's the opposite of Sam, he's so HAPPY whenever I leave for work...coz wala ng contrabida sa buhay nya...hahaha...he will not here me shout and say NO!...STOP IT! and ENOUGH!!! hahaha...

I am really excited going back to work...bad trip lang coz of this bug...hay!

I hope by next week I am ok na...

Back To Work

I am suffering from separation anxiety...I thought that babies only suffer from this. I read form one article that the baby will cry and will have a hard time to let go if the baby sees her mother crying and having a hard time too...whew...!!!

I am due to work on the third week of June, I have only less than two weeks to go, and everyday I pray that when the time comes that I have to leave every morning to go to work that Sam will not suffer so much.

Life is hard...really..if not I would not be forced to get back to work...Someday, I want my children to realize and to know that my decision to get back to work is not just for me to be able to give them material things, but for me to be able to give them a good and secured future. My time with them might be lessen ... I might not be able to be with them physically 24/7, but I will always be there for them.

I'm Back

i'm back......







i've been so busy taking care of my sam...







we had a break from our daily routine...we went out...







i missed blogging....







hope i can have time for this again...







soon...







this is it for now...

D DAY!!!

IT'S A GIRL!!!

SAMANTHA IRENE is exactly two weeks today...she was born November 18 of this year. I am really happy because she's healthy and beautiful (got her looks from mommy - - who else..hahaha!!!). Although my OB-GYN told me that he had a problem with my delivery (the situation calls for a CS delivery) but, because he's so good...hay...thank God he heard my prayers...it was a Normal delivery!!!! (next topic na lang ang detailed birthing kwento ko!!!)

I am so happy and I still can not believe that I have two kids na...and I really thank God for the advance Christmas gift...He gave me what I really asked for...a baby girl...and a very healthy and loving child. Eventhough Sam is just two weeks old, I can really tell what kind of person she is...and I am happy that I gave her that name, it fits her personality...

Thank you to all those who prayed for us...

God bless!!!

ANYTIME NOW!!!

Family and friends asks me when is my due date, and I would answer them: ANYTIME NOW!!!

Yes, it’s NOVEMBER and it’s the month for our Baby Sam. I am not sure about the exact date but my instinct tells me that if not next week, probably the latest will be the third week.

Last night, I was experiencing Braxton Hicks contractions (tightening in the uterus - which means that its a sign that my body is preparing for labor) and I kinda panicked coz I still have a lot of things to do in terms of fixing and preparing Baby Sam’s stuff and clothes. So, even though I was not feeling well, I asked hubby to help me clean and put up the crib and pack our things for the hospital. I want to make sure that I am prepared and ready to go when my water bag breaks.

Since this is my second pregnancy, the advantage is, I know now what to expect and to feel if I am really in labor. Unlike last time, I had no idea …clueless…! I am not that nervous but I am kinda worried, I hate the labor part…and the preparation for delivery…its where the nurse will ask a lot of questions while one is experiencing so much pain…as if I can still remember the exact date of my last menstrual period while in labor…

Anyway, I would not be able to post a lot in my blog for the next couple of days coz I am now busy preparing for Baby Sam’s arrival…so, I guess good bye for now…coz when Baby Sam arrives, I will be very busy taking care of Sam…I can probably write here once a month na lang…bahala na…hehehe!!!

Please pray for me and Baby Sam…thank you!!!

By the way, my ob-gyn told me during my weekly check ups (thrice already) that he thinks Baby Sam is a girl! I hope so!!!!

I Am A MEAN Mom & PROUD of it!

Got this from my co-n@wies (hi mys!!!) and I really liked the message here. Now I truly understand why my mom was very "mean" to me when I was growing up. Please read below and you'll understand what the word "mean" really means...

Now that I have a son, I am proud to say that I am a MEAN mom too...someday, Paul will also realize what my true intentions and motives for being one. I LOVE YOU Anak!

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Mean Moms
Someday when my children are old enough to
understand the logic that motivates a parent, I will
tell them, as my Mean Mom told me: I loved you
enough to ask where you were going, with whom,
and what time you would be home.
I loved you enough to be silent and let you
discover that your new best friend was a creep.
I loved you enough to stand over you for two hours
while you cleaned your room, a job that should have taken 15 minutes.
I loved you enough to let you see anger,
disappointment, and tears in my eyes. Children must
learn that their parents aren't perfect.
I loved you enough to let you assume the
responsibility for your actions even when the
penalties were so harsh they almost broke my heart.
But most of all, I loved you enough to say
NO when I knew you would hate me for it.
Those were the most difficult battles of all. I'm
glad I won them, because in the end you won, too.
And someday when your children are old enough to
understand the logic that motivates parents, you will tell them.
Was your Mom mean? I know mine was. We had the
meanest mother in the whole world! While other kids
ate candy for breakfast, we had to have cereal, eggs, and toast.
When others had a Pepsi and a Twinkie for lunch, we had to eat sandwiches.
And you can guess our mother fixed us a dinner that was
different from what other kids had, too.
Mother insisted on knowing where we were at all
times. You'd think we were convicts in a prison. She
had to know who our friends were, and what we were
doing with them. She insisted that if we said we
would be gone for an hour, we would be gone for an hour or less.
We were ashamed to admit it, but she had the nerve
to break the Child Labor Laws by making us work. We
had to wash the dishes, make the beds, learn to
cook, vacuum the floor, do laundry, empty the trash
and all sorts of cruel jobs. I think she would lie
awake at night thinking of more things for us to do.
She always insisted on us telling the truth, the
whole truth, and nothing but the truth. By the time
we were teenagers, she could read our minds and had
eyes in the back of her head. Then, life was really tough!
Mother wouldn't let our friends just honk the horn
when they drove up. They had to come up to the door
so she could meet them. While everyone else could
date when they were 12 or 13, we had to wait until we were 16.
Because of our mother we missed out on lots of
things other kids experienced. None of us have ever
been caught shoplifting, vandalizing other's
property or ever arrested for any crime. It was all her fault.
Now that we have left home, we are all educated,
honest adults. We are doing our best to be mean
parents just like Mom was.
I think that is what's wrong with the world today.
It just doesn't have enough mean moms!
PASS THIS ON TO ALL THE MEAN MOTHERS YOU KNOW.
(And Their Kids!!!)

Batang-Bata Ka Pa

I have been so strict with my son, everyday we go through a lot of shouting and saying no's...I know this is not good, maybe I am being too hard on Paul. I just want him to be a good and obedient boy. I know, I should try to understand that his just growing up and exploring his world. As of now I really can not explain it to him coz I know he will not understand me.

The other day, I was having a hard time sleeping again, so I took my hubby's mp3 and listened to it. I heard this song and I thought to myself that this song really describes what I really want to say to Paul when he grows up. I heard Sugarfree's version of Batang-Bata Ka Pa by APO Hiking Society. Like what I've experience when I was growing up, I had a lot of questions why my parents, especially my mom, was kinda strict. Now that I have a son and soon another baby, I've come to realize that they just want the best for me.

So to my baby Paul...please forgive mommy for being so strict...someday you will also understand. I LOVE YOU!

BATANG-BATA
By: Apo Hiking Society

Batang-bata ka pa at marami ka pang                         
kailangang malaman at intindihin sa mundo
Yan ang totoo
Nagkakamali ka kung akala mo na ang buhay
ay isang mumunting paraiso lamang

Batang-bata ka lang at akala mo na na alam 
mo na ang lahat na kailangan mong malaman
Buhay ay di ganyan
Tanggapin mo na lang ang katotohanan na ikaw
ay isang musmos lang na wala pang alam
Makinig ka na lang makinig ka na lang

Chorus
Ganyan talaga ang buhay lagi kang nasasabihan
Pagkat ikaw ay bata at wala pang nalalaman
Makinig ka sa 'king payo pagkat musmos ka lamang
At malaman ng maaga ang wasto sa kamalian

Batang-bata ako nalalaman ko 'to
Inamin ko rin na kulang ang aking nalalaman at nauunawaan
Ngunit kahit ganyan ang kinalalagyan alam
ko na may karapatan ang bawat nilalang
Kahit bata pa man kahit bata pa man

Nais ko sanang malaman ang mali sa katotohanan
Sariling pagraranas ang aking pamamagitan
Imulat ang isipan sa mga kulay ng buhay
Maging tunay na malaya sa katangi-tanging bata

Batang-bata ka pa at marami ka pang
kailangang malaman at intindihin sa mundo
Nais ko sanang malaman ang mali sa katotohanan
Batang-bata ka lang at akala mo na na alam mo
na ang lahat na kailangan mong malaman
Sariling pagraranas ang aking pamamagitan
Nagkakamali ka kung akala mo na ang buhay
ay isang mumunting paraiso lamang
la la la ý
la la la ý (fade)