Rainy Days & Mondays...

No, I am not pertaining to the song. I hate mondays, but I love rainy days. I love the cool breeze and hearing the sounds of the rain drops. It has a calming effect on me...which leads to the state of "KATAM"...hehehehehe!!!! Yup, you got it right, "KATAMARAN"!!!

I haven't posted any entries lately because of "KATAM". I always love sleeping a bit longer and cozying up with my pillow and blanket everytime rainy days come. I think my mind and body wants to stop functioning and just lie in bed while I take advantage of the cool breeze.

So, so much for snuggling with my pillow.... before my "self" shuts off entirely, I have to move and begin writing again or else, it will be awhile before I will have the energy to think and write again. HAHAHA!!!!

Ha? Barney Nanaman?!?

While writing this post, I can hear from the other room that my son is watching he's all time fave show...BARNEY !!! Yup, I should confess that my son is so addicted to barney. Hay!! As soon as he wakes up, barney...lunch time, barney...before nap time, barney...at night, baney...hay!!! I've memorized all the songs, movements and dialogues ...hay!!! But it sure is a great way to bribe him to drink his daily dose of vitamins...hehehe!!! It's the only show were you can see him sit and watch actually...other cartoons? nah...after 5 mins. he'll walk away and play na lang.



But Paul learned a lot from watching Barney. He's so sweet and friendly with other kids. I can say, although I have to watch it, I'm not getting tired of it coz all the songs are good hehehe!!! Paul and I had a chance to watch Barney and his friends live at Araneta last year. It's a funny story coz I really didn't planned on watching it. The ticket cost too much for a 2 hour show. And I thought that Paul will not remember it when he's 12 or even 7. When ABS-CBN televised series of barney, even though I'm KAPUSO, I swallowed my pride just so Paul can watch new series of Barney. And everytime the show ended, ABS will promote the show in Araneta, they even had a contest so viewers can win free tickets. Boom! It hit me, Paul can watch it live if I join the contest (eventhough I do not believe in that kind of promo coz I am never lucky in contests/promos/etc...). So every morning before the show starts, I will ready my cel and type the format...and one morning, a call came in and told me I won the contest. I was really shocked! Me? Win? So, to make the long story short...we were able to watch it live. Funny as it may sound, but while watching it w/ Paul, I was teary eyed...not bcoz I saw barney in person (hhmm!!!) but bcoz I saw how happy my son is. Kahit nasa dulo kami ng walang hanggan at super liit si Baney and his friends...kahit na napaka gulo ni Paul ....and kahit na iniwan ko lahat ng baon namin ni Paul sa gate (kasi bawal pala)...its all worth it. Im so happy coz my son finally saw Barney!!!

posted last July 19, 2006 @ my friendster blog

A Time for Everything

Reading the bible "religiously" is not an easy thing for me to do. Its very hard to concentrate on books and chapters while Paul jumps up and down the bed and keep on asking so many things. So I try to find time reading at night when everybody's asleep...but sometimes due to exhaustion, I find myself asleep too. :)

But everytime I find time to read a few chapters, a verse or two will surely strike an issue, doubts or struggles I am facing that day. God really knows how to make a point!

The other night after reading the book of Ecclesiastes chapters 2 & 3, it really made me reflect a lot about my life. Everything that happened in my life was planned, not by me, BUT by God. When I was a teenager, I've always dreamed of a lot of things for my future...and yet a few just came true. I am not saying I am a bad planner, but that we can not really tell what is in store in our future, not even a "manghuhula" can tell...only God knows. But I am happy because what I really wanted ...God gave it.

When Paul turned two, I've been thinking of getting back to work (as much as I don't want to). I felt that its time for me to help Sanny financially since Paul will start he's pre-school next year (2007). People started asking us when will we have another baby, & I always say "matagal pa...probably 5 or 7 yrs pa coz its not easy caring for a child..." and I think it will give me more time and money to save up for the next child. But God has other plans for me and my family. When I found out that I am pregnant, at first I was kind of worried because a lot of questions came to my mind. Are we financially ready? Will I have enough time for another baby while taking care of Paul, my hubby and myself? But after realizing that God planned it, I became secured coz I believed that He will not bless us with another baby if we are not ready. Also, I never thought that we will move to another place to live. Again, God planned it for us. And when it happened Iwas not shocked anymore coz I know God has reasons and I am happy coz those reasons are for my family's sake.

I am not living in my dream house, I do not own a hi-tech and expensive cellphone, I do not have the latest fashion clothes and fancy accessories, but still I can say that I am happy and contented in what I have right now. The most important blessings are already with me: Sanny, my understanding and loving husband; Paul, my active, clever and handsome son; Sam, my unborn sweet child inside my womb; my family, who's always there to guide me; my friends, who listens and laughs with me; & of course My GOD, who strengthens me and the reason for my living!

"When we have the proper view of God, we discover that real pleasure is found in enjoying whatever we have as gifts from God not in what we accumulate." - Life Application Study Bible (N.I.V.) -

posted last July 17, 2006 @ my friendster blog

What is a Mother?

Searching on yahoo, I have come across a lot of famous quotes on mothers, and I really would like to share it here so that I can truly say what mothers are feeling, experiencing and hardships in becoming a good one. Like the cliche goes "you can never truly appreciate your own mother until you are one..."

"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to
have your heart go walking around outside your body. " -Elizabeth Stone-

"Mothers are fonder than fathers of their children because they are more certain
they are their own." -Aristotle-

"Mother love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the
impossible." -Marrion C. Garretty

"Some are kissing mothers and some are scolding mothers, but it is love just the
same – and most mothers kiss and scold together." -Buck-

"A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five
people, promptly announces she never did care for pie." -Tenneva Jordan-

"A man loves his sweetheart the most, his wife the best, but his mother the
longest." -Irish proverb-

"A mother who is really a mother is never free."
-Honore De Balzac-

posted last July 17, 2006 @ my friendster blog

Looking Forward to....

It's Monday and five more days to go before I get to see my college barkadas...I miss them so much. Thanks to Carrie, my ever "reliable" best friend...sa walang sawang pag txt brigade mo sa kanila, sa lahat ng efforts mo sa pangungulit sa kanila at sa pakikinig sa aking mga sentimientos...hehehe...I really do pray na lahat kayo makapunta. It's been a lllloooonnngggg time since I had a chance to go out and have some fun with them. If I am correct, the last time was ...uhm? kelan nga ulit yun? hehehe!!!! ah!!! That was last January, the baptism of Det's son, Dylan. Kaya lang di naman tayo complete eh. The last time ata na complete tayo was last 2003 pa ata...bridal shower ko. hehehe...

The first and foremost reason why I am really loking forward to our gimmik (considered gimmik ba ang lunch date? hehehe!) is because its been awhile since I had a chance to go out by myself ...yup...alone at last...its not that hindi ako happy to go out with my hubby Sanny and son Paul, but now I will have time (again!) for myself. Since being a mother, you have to sacrifice a LOT for your family...and time for one's self is the most thing that mothers have to sacrifice. And now that I am pergnant, I am sure it will be hard for me to go out again after giving birth on November.

The second reason is: baby shower....I am happy that my friends are giving me another baby shower...I have my wish list na ..hehehe...pero ok lang kahit ano, basta cute....hehehe...First born always has the advantage of so many things...like baby showers and new clothes, new things and new toys...unlike the second, the third, and so on....So its just fair for my second baby (Sam) to also experience baby showers, new things and not just hand me downs...I like to be fair with my babies...

The third reason: MY BIRTHDAY! Yup, my birthday is fast approaching...I initiated this gimmik coz its my birthday. When I was still single, I always celebrate my birthday with parties...not naman "grandeng" celebration, just a simple dinner @ our house with my friends. My mom always kid me "bakit ako lang sa amin sa family ang mahilig maghanda?" hehehe....I don't know why, but I love to entertain my friends eh. Anyway, since its my 28th birthday, and I can't celebrate it sa house (coz its now hard to entertain guests with a kid in tow...hahaha)...i opted to meet na lang w/ my barkada in Eastwood...(hey paging Sheryl, this time malapit na sa iyo ha).

I am really EXCITED...thanks to my hubby, who will be the "yayo" for Paul...I will have the time...all for myself...alone ... at last...! Mothers out there will surely understand what I am talking about "time for myself"....hehehe!

Hey calling Michelle, Sheryl, Det, Dyo & Tina ...I am looking forward to our lunch date this coming saturday and you know the reasons why!!!

posted last July 17, 2006 @ my friendster blog

What Inspires Us?

I have read a lot of stories, poems, novels, essays, etc. about mothers and everytime I read one, it inspires me to become a good one and to keep on going whenever I want to give up. Everyone of us needs an inspiration to keep us going whenever we face trials, obstacles and problems in life. It helps us face life with a positive attitude, makes us happy and stand up whenever we fall on our knees. To all mothers out there, I want to share a poem by Deanna Beisser, and I hope it will also inspire you!

If anyone ever told a woman pondering motherhood
how many dishes she would wash,

how many diapers she would change,
or how many spelling words she would relearn,

she'd probably think twice
before having a child.

If anyone were to mention

that the terrible two's aren't half as demanding

as the turbelent teens,
that school and sports activities

require a mother's lifetime commitment,
and that friends, phones, and malls

are the essence of a young one's desires,
she might have a second tought or two.

But the funny thing about motherhood
is that once you ar a mother,

you can never imagine your life
without the love and joy of your child.
Because with each and every obligation

and the endless amount of responsibility
there is a wonderful feeling of happiness that enters your heart
and stays with you wherever you go.

It is the feeling of LOVE...
the most beautiful emotion in life.

posted last July 13, 2006 @ my friendster blog

Writer's Block

I love writing ever since I can remember. But not professionally. I remember when I was in highschool, I love reading pocketbooks (Sweet Dreams, Sweet Valley High, etc.) and I said to myself, someday I will write my own pocketbooks too. Yup, I wrote... but not a pocketbook that other people will be able to read... poems where I expressed my feelings, happiness, sadness or anything that inspired me. I kept those poems in a notebook, a place where no one can read it or even see it. I was afraid that my poems were "corny" and my english were "barok".

I still kept on writing poems even when I was in college, but still I kept it to myself. I was not confident enough to join our school paper or even just to let someone read my stuff. When i started working I was not able to continue my passion coz I think I got busy and forgot that I love writing.

When I had the opportunity to join a charismatic community (God Loves Prayer Community), someone believed I can write even though he hasn't read any of my work. I guess the Lord whispered to him and made my desire a reality. Thanks to Bro. Mhars, I was given the opportunity to write in the Community's newsletter. Eventhough my confidence level is negative zero, people still believed in my ability and I kept writing. I know i was inspired by God to write.

When I got married, I had to give up writing - because I had to go back to my first love...not because of sanny (hehehe) but my love for singing. I had to go back to our choir and serve. Eventhough I chose singing, I still wrote, and I still did it for sometime, but again to myself na lang muna.

After giving birth, i became so busy with Paul that I wasn't able to write again... When I learned about blogs, I really wanted to create one coz this is an opportunity for me to write again and this time people will be able to read it na. But I guess the years that passed by without writing anything gave me a major writer's block. I had a hard time composing and thinking what to write. I tried to read some of my friends blogs, but still I wasn't able to update my blog. Years passed and my blog contained only pictures of me, paul and sanny. Until someone inspired me, and without her knowledge that she has inspired me...Thanks Gelli, ever since I read your blog, I was again inspired to write.

posted last July 5, 2006 @ friendster blog

Blogging....

I started blogging just last month and I am enjoying it. But since I don't know much about it, I just started it at my account in friendster. A friend of mine introduced this site to me just last week and right now I am transferring all my past posts in friendster here.

I am right now in the process of fixing this new blog so I think I'll have my new post next week.

In the mean time, I'll just post a pic of my baby Paul...

My Paul playing with his fave toy....CAR!!!!

On Being a Mom

Its very fulfilling for a woman to have a child of her own. A child that you bore for 9 months, plus the morning sickness that usually strikes you all day...But the additional bonus of "eating for two", which for me is a super yippee!!! No more diets for 9 months...hahaha!

But being a mother is not an easy thing, I think and I believe it is the hardest JOB in the whole world!!! You are responsible for the child's life especially his/her future. Its not his/her option and choice to come out of this cruel world, its our fault...and its our JOB to make their life happy, comfortable and worth living for. Its a cliche, but one can't really know how hard it is to be a parent unless you experience it.

The hardest part in being a parent? DISCIPLINING!!! How can you tell if you are right and your child is wrong, and its just a normal phase of a child's life? How can you count from 1 to 10 just to make you calm, if your child keeps doing it and seems happy that you are really, really mad? How can you tell when it is right to spank, shout and punish your child? How will it affect your child, especially when he/she has his/her own children?

All mothers just want the best for their children, I believe...And prayers is what all mothers do for their children...Because we, mothers, believe only God can truly keep an eye on our children. Only God can really guide them to right path and not to travel the road passed by Satan.

To all mothers out there...Congratulations! We deserve all of it, coz we still have a long...long...way to go until we know that our children grows up to be very successful and God fearing people.

To my MOM, thanks for being a great and cool mom. Thanks for always being there, ready to help. Love yah!

To my Paul...please forgive mommy...and I love you so much! To Sam - who's in my womb, not yet sure if boy or girl - may God bless your heart, your lungs, your whole body so that when the time comes, you'll be a healthy baby. And may you grow up to be a good & sweet person like your Kuya. I love you too!