Reading the bible "religiously" is not an easy thing for me to do. Its very hard to concentrate on books and chapters while Paul jumps up and down the bed and keep on asking so many things. So I try to find time reading at night when everybody's asleep...but sometimes due to exhaustion, I find myself asleep too. :)
But everytime I find time to read a few chapters, a verse or two will surely strike an issue, doubts or struggles I am facing that day. God really knows how to make a point!
The other night after reading the book of Ecclesiastes chapters 2 & 3, it really made me reflect a lot about my life. Everything that happened in my life was planned, not by me, BUT by God. When I was a teenager, I've always dreamed of a lot of things for my future...and yet a few just came true. I am not saying I am a bad planner, but that we can not really tell what is in store in our future, not even a "manghuhula" can tell...only God knows. But I am happy because what I really wanted ...God gave it.
When Paul turned two, I've been thinking of getting back to work (as much as I don't want to). I felt that its time for me to help Sanny financially since Paul will start he's pre-school next year (2007). People started asking us when will we have another baby, & I always say "matagal pa...probably 5 or 7 yrs pa coz its not easy caring for a child..." and I think it will give me more time and money to save up for the next child. But God has other plans for me and my family. When I found out that I am pregnant, at first I was kind of worried because a lot of questions came to my mind. Are we financially ready? Will I have enough time for another baby while taking care of Paul, my hubby and myself? But after realizing that God planned it, I became secured coz I believed that He will not bless us with another baby if we are not ready. Also, I never thought that we will move to another place to live. Again, God planned it for us. And when it happened Iwas not shocked anymore coz I know God has reasons and I am happy coz those reasons are for my family's sake.
I am not living in my dream house, I do not own a hi-tech and expensive cellphone, I do not have the latest fashion clothes and fancy accessories, but still I can say that I am happy and contented in what I have right now. The most important blessings are already with me: Sanny, my understanding and loving husband; Paul, my active, clever and handsome son; Sam, my unborn sweet child inside my womb; my family, who's always there to guide me; my friends, who listens and laughs with me; & of course My GOD, who strengthens me and the reason for my living!
"When we have the proper view of God, we discover that real pleasure is found in enjoying whatever we have as gifts from God not in what we accumulate." - Life Application Study Bible (N.I.V.) -
posted last July 17, 2006 @ my friendster blog
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