Writer's Block

I love writing ever since I can remember. But not professionally. I remember when I was in highschool, I love reading pocketbooks (Sweet Dreams, Sweet Valley High, etc.) and I said to myself, someday I will write my own pocketbooks too. Yup, I wrote... but not a pocketbook that other people will be able to read... poems where I expressed my feelings, happiness, sadness or anything that inspired me. I kept those poems in a notebook, a place where no one can read it or even see it. I was afraid that my poems were "corny" and my english were "barok".

I still kept on writing poems even when I was in college, but still I kept it to myself. I was not confident enough to join our school paper or even just to let someone read my stuff. When i started working I was not able to continue my passion coz I think I got busy and forgot that I love writing.

When I had the opportunity to join a charismatic community (God Loves Prayer Community), someone believed I can write even though he hasn't read any of my work. I guess the Lord whispered to him and made my desire a reality. Thanks to Bro. Mhars, I was given the opportunity to write in the Community's newsletter. Eventhough my confidence level is negative zero, people still believed in my ability and I kept writing. I know i was inspired by God to write.

When I got married, I had to give up writing - because I had to go back to my first love...not because of sanny (hehehe) but my love for singing. I had to go back to our choir and serve. Eventhough I chose singing, I still wrote, and I still did it for sometime, but again to myself na lang muna.

After giving birth, i became so busy with Paul that I wasn't able to write again... When I learned about blogs, I really wanted to create one coz this is an opportunity for me to write again and this time people will be able to read it na. But I guess the years that passed by without writing anything gave me a major writer's block. I had a hard time composing and thinking what to write. I tried to read some of my friends blogs, but still I wasn't able to update my blog. Years passed and my blog contained only pictures of me, paul and sanny. Until someone inspired me, and without her knowledge that she has inspired me...Thanks Gelli, ever since I read your blog, I was again inspired to write.

posted last July 5, 2006 @ friendster blog